I am Judas's kiss but you love me anyway...
Today at church we talked about the last supper, only this time i saw it with new eyes. Taught in a way i'd never really considered. Jesus was loving Judas still, all the time knowing what was to come. He continually reached out to Judas, amidst all he carried with Him. Betrayal. Dirt. Sin. Baggage. Yet, Jesus wanted Him to know, He still was there, He still cared, He still wanted His heart. There was still hope- but Judas walked out.
That's me. I'm Judas. I'm the one who kissed Jesus' cheek. The one who gave him away. The one who sealed the deal. I'm the betrayer. And it breaks me.
Today, I am broken by my sin. Broken by the thoughts of Jesus continually reaching out to me day after day saying, "Ashton, i love you. I trust you. I'm here. You don't have to do this." But just like Judas, i make the choice to walk in betrayal, in selfishness, in disobedience.
I want that to change. I want to receive that love, and let my feet truly be washed. Not just the outward appearance, but my heart- I want my heart attitude to be made clean.
listen to this song, ponder these words- and do what you need to do at the feet of Jesus today.
Sidewalk Prophets- you love me anyway
"I am the thorn in your crown but you love me anyway. I am the sweat from your brow, but you love me anyway. I am the nail in your wrist but you love me anyway. I am Judas' kiss but you love me anyway."
